This last week has been difficult – passing through the star-gate of Orion – another huge event as I continue to remember where I came from and who I am. The 3D illusion continues to break up – like an old curtain falling away and the new slowly emerging. No clear picture yet. We are in that in-between space where the old is dying and the new is not yet fully visible. This is the wilderness – not comfortable – scary at times- but filled with new possibilities. I have been in this space many times before and learnt to navigate it without falling to pieces.
This time it feels bigger and a bit scarier. Whole chunks of my “reality” are just falling away at a rapid rate. People are in and out of my life so quickly I barely have time to process it. Things I thought were a “sure thing” are just evaporating in the blink of an eye. The wonderful dance class I had last term has now been cancelled because I am the only student left – to give just one small example. How strange and scary it all seems. I talk to other people who are having exactly the same experience – it’s hard to feel that anything is permanent. Whilst I’ve always known in my mind that nothing is permanent, it’s confronting to see this reality in fast-forward as I’m seeing now.
How to get through it all? Lying in my healing room today I see us all passing through the Orion star-gate and relaxing and surrendering into the process. A huge circle of 3D energy appears and within my Angelic form appears and comes towards me. It is tall and white/gold as I have seen it many many times. My little 3D form lying in the healing room struggles to rise up and join with it. Why am I still struggling rather than just surrendering?
My angelic energy field draws me in – come closer it says and rest within me – this is you – this is who you really are – all day – every day. There is no more 3D you and Angelic you – there is just you. Like the tired child that I am, I go to rest within the heart of my Angelic being and simply merge with it. It’s easy, effortless and safe.
Days later, I’m still struggling with this reality – how to end the illusion of the 3D self and stay surrendered to the Angel within. How to step out of the inner struggle forever? Insecurities, old and new grief pops up all over the place to throw me off balance. And it works – I’m crying and scared, happy and joyful in quick succession. The speed of everything is just plain scary.
I breathe, walk with the dog and even go away for a week where I can be in nature all day. It helps but I’m not there yet. I meet up with someone I haven’t seen for a long time and she gives me a great insight, which helps a lot. Ask yourself the right questions like:
“Show me how it would feel to be loved?” or ……………..?
Have all my needs met
I used this wonderful insight and effortlessly I feel love as a golden energy running right through my heart chakra. I feel Safety as a long zip right down the front of my body – which allows negative energy to be released easily. I feel Peace as a line of light running from my heart chakra through my throat and up to my crown chakra. I feel Cherished as wonderful tingling energy all around the back of my neck and running up my head.
Days later I my mind is fighting back, once I’m back home. It can’t be that easy, look over here – worry about this- see that disappointment over there and so on. The mind doesn’t want to be done out of it’s job of keeping the Ego active. The Ego doesn’t have much to do if we aren’t afraid, resentful or whatever.
I’m still struggling but the gap is closing. The shift we are all making out of 3D reality will show us our darkest fears and highest hopes in equal measure, because this is duality – the very essence of 3D. Surrendering to our Angelic Light beings within, is our way out of 3D and what lies beyond.
All the great teachings have tried to show us this. We contain that spark of the Divine – where there just one and we are part of it. This is our time to know this in every cell of our being. Don’t waste the opportunity.